Friday Night

My entire body is sore from going over the top at L.A. Fitness from yesterday. Spent the morning reading from my giant pile of newspapers which has been stacking up over the past year. I keep telling myself one day I will be able to keep up with the news and magazines which I'm all a good year behind. ONE DAY, I will be caught up! When I am reading I have my laptop open and I document everything I deem that is important/interesting. Quick example, the economy is so bad in Iceland, McDonalds are closing down. Took a nap during the afternoon, woke up & continued to read. I was interrupted by a certain someone who, rarely, if ever, takes the initiative in anything that person does in the many years Ive known this individual. I get a Skype message: "I'm here to tell you that I'm deleting Skype, ok bye." After that message, my stress levels started rising, I stopped reading, and just sat there starring off into space for the next ten minutes. I've concluded, that certain individual has too much influence in her life. He/she although graduated with an BA, STILL does not have a say or make choices for him/herself. White hair does not run in my family. I've convinced myself that all of my white hair started when I started having relationships. Whenever I hear the word "relationship" or "girlfriend/boyfriend" I get ulcer pain.

I've seen all sorts of relationships, & have experienced enough to have a very, very good understanding of how it works. Unlike in dramas & movies where actors & actresses have scrips to memorize, reality is indeed a cruel place; not in terms of relationships, but everything else as well. Sometimes people can be so irrational, it baffles me at some of the choices people make. For instance, there are people who read & do not know the true definition of certain words, skim through, and does not get a full understanding, and continue to try to prove their point ignoring all I've said. I take the time to explain to them, yet they act so immature, and snap back at me with "oh but you started it," or another excuse. They do not work towards an agreement but work towards getting the last word in or play ignorant. (This is why I prefer older women; I hope that due to their older age they will have more experience and not repeat the same childish problems.)
After my mother came back from China recently, it finally occurred to me that, why waste the effort to rationalize with people who does not think rationally in the first place? It's like, talking to a wall, nothing gets solved. When my mother gets upset, nothing, I mean NOTHING I do can rectify the situation. I've learned that my best option is to listen (im obligated to listen or else she will start destroying the house), to listen and hide in my room. The best solution actually, is to leave the house & turn off the cellphone. It gives zero opportunity for my mom to engage me in a hostile conversation.

To keep things simple: its crucial to decrease the ever increasing complications in our daily lives; in school & work having a simple resume or project is no good, but everything else in life works this way, don't believe me? Craigslist generates more traffic than ebay & amazon combined together. Amazon has a employee workforce of 2000+, Ebay 500+, Craigslist, just 20. Craigslist's site layout? Plain and simple, many people wanted to "uplift" Craigslist's site layout & design and were all shot down without a thought by the founders. Why change something that works really well?

Facebook; ah the original Facemash, how things have changed. Anyways, up till tonight, I did not know about 50% of how to change settings worked in Facebook. I originally thought it was either "you are single" or "your with someone else," I didn't know you were able to hide the status altogether. It's silly how many times I've seen the moment someone breaks up the 1st thing they do is to update that status on their Facebook page. I've just removed that "relationship status" altogether since....ohhh, ulcer pain....GAAAH! To me, there is no such thing as pfftt, "love." Men wants sex, women wants love. Men mistakes sex for love, women sees sex as an obligation to men. I've worked so hard at my past relationships, every single time I get taken granted for!!! I get used & discarded. WTF AM I? A FRIGGING TAMPON? I tried to be that Mr. Gentleman/Mr. Niceguy, but I learned, nice guys ALWAYS finish last!